I remember at 23 having a few weeks where I was basically homeless. The contract for my apartment that summer ran out before I had to be in Mexico to student teach. Leaving me homeless. So I decided to take advantage of the situation.
First I took Elena to a BYU football game. Somehow she had been my roommate for over two years and I hadn’t gotten her to a football game yet. When she told work that her roommate was making her go to a football game they rightly guessed I’m from Texas.
After the game that weekend I took a Greyhound bus from Provo to Vernal and spent several days with Grandpa Giles. I’m really glad I did that. Then it was another Greyhound back to Salt Lake and a flight to El Paso to stay with some friends for a few days before going to Mexico.
When I left Mexico I did some more homeless wanderings. I spent a few more days in El Paso. While there I spoke in the ward I attended in high school, I went to visit some high school teachers, and I attended a session at the Ciudad Juárez temple. Then I flew to Houston for about a week.
My brother had come back from Brasil and I hadn’t seen him in almost two years, so it was great to spend some time with him. He found a friend whose floor I could sleep on (hi Montreal Zen!), that was memorable meeting her, and set me up with a trip to Johnson Space Center for a day. Which was very much awesome for me. We went to some museums and saw the cow statues too. We thought about getting me set up to perform with the MOB that weekend for their football game but decided against it. We went to a hockey game and randomly ran into my neighbors from my apartment at BYU at the game and then after the game lost the car (we knew where it was, we didn’t know where we were).
When I finally got to my parents’ we drove back to Texas, Waco this time, for Thanksgiving as a family.
It was a lot of suitcase living the first half of my 23rd year, but it was a lot of fun too.

I remember at 22 worrying if I remembered enough English to do a phone interview for student teaching. I wanted to do my student teaching in Colonia Juárez because it was three (four) hours from home (except by then my parents had moved to Kentucky). I had to submit the essays and applications before I came home from my mission. That was the only email I sent my entire mission. Then they wanted to do an interview with me, and it needed to happen before I came home from Brasil.
I remember at 21 having my first Thanksgiving outside of the United States. I haven’t had Thanksgiving with my parents at their house since my senior year of high school. I’ve been with my parents three times since then for Thanksgiving, just never at their house. Thanksgiving when I was 21 was spent at the Missionary Training Center in São Paulo, Brasil. They actually took us to get our visa passes that day and it was a bit of a cognitive disconnect for me to think of government offices being open on Thanksgiving.
I remember the summer I turned 20 was spent in a lot of pain. I remember lying flat on the floor in tears trying to take as small of breaths as I could because any movement of my back muscles caused intense pain. I remember standing through all three hours of church because sitting was not possible because of how badly my back hurt.
I remember the day after I turned 19 I ran my first marathon. I remember spending the first few miles just being in awe that I was even starting a marathon, that I was there. My dad gave me a running hat for my birthday the day before and we both got to the starting line wearing our running hats, Texas running shorts, and New Balance Shoes. I saw Dad at the out-and-back part of the race and then he came back to cheer me on the last few blocks before I finished. Finishing a marathon was a rush. It was a high.
I remember at 18 attending
After the session the snow had stopped falling and the sun had come out and it was a beautiful day. We got a ride back to campus and watched the rest of Conference trying to get warm again in our apartment. We did a bit of baking so we’d have an excuse to turn the oven on and add its heat to the apartment.
I remember at 17 making some choices that would affect the rest of my life. I didn’t realize how big one of those choices was.
I am an educator and PhD. I quilt, belly dance, run, read, and try to grow things. I am a Mormon. I am infertile. I am a daughter, sister, aunt, grand-daughter, friend, wife, and mom.










